This is pretty random
but have you ever thought about what you would do if you didn’t have to work for money? I mean, if you were financially set and your talents and abilities were limitless (as in—if you wanted to be a chemist, you could just suddenly learn all that science jazz). Basically what you would do if it was an abstract world… and somehow you could do it.
Just stick with me here: go back to fifth grade when you had to write your “I Want To Be” paper*. (Wait, was that just MY elementary school?)
Anyways, I’ve always given the whole I’d love to work for charity shpeel not because it sounds good, but because I love helping others and making a difference. I actually think it’s one of my biggest downfalls—I am somehow drawn to people who are more fucked up and crazy than I am. (Let’s not get into details.) But the psychologist in me thinks that I’m friends with these people because it brings me stability and a sense of calmness and direction that I can guide them… when I’m unintentionally—or maybe intentionally—screwing up my own life.
That said, I was just doing nothing really tonight HAD LOTS OF THINGS TO DO BUT DIDN’T REALLY DO THEM, and suddenly I thought, I’d love to give it a shot at playing poker professionally.
* For my fifth grade paper, I wrote that I wanted to be a [museum] curator. NO JOKE. I never knew I was such a pretentious asshole at that age…
